SoulThirst

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I'm in a sour disposition that's getting more sour by the minute. However, this is neither the proper channel nor forum to go off on it. Still, the fact remains, that I am an introvert, one who draws his energy from being alone & having time in solitude. I do NOT gain strength from constantly being around people, which is in fact, what my week's been like. And to be honest, I feel very drained. The first sign of which, that I am easily frustrated & annoyed by people.

They say that when a person grows up, all they really learn how to do is make their sins appear more "civilized." After all, a 2-year old, when upset at someone, will very vocally & openly let everyone know. However, an adult will make such anger more "tamed," and perhaps not express it in a violent outburst, but in more subtle ways- such as body language, looks, attitude, etc. Yet although man looks at the outward appearance, God looketh on the heart, and so perhaps the gap between the adult & the child is not as wide as we'd like to imagine. So while I've learned to "tame" my emotions, there are times when I feel the "primal rage" within, where my real feelings would rather bust out- where there are people that I'd like to tell off, but I don't. Or things I'd like to smash & could very well punch holes in, but I don't.

posted by Andy Chang @ 12:45 AM